Monday, June 16, 2008


Resistance is on my mind. In my spiritual practice I have been
working on getting rid of ego (in as much as you can) and saying
yes to life in the now. Resistance gets in the way. A lot. At the
moment I am resisting a whole list of things. I am resisting getting
older, I am resisting having to work and not doing what I love for a
living. I am resisting this sinus infection, the cutting down of the tree
at work and so many things I could write for an hour, but I will spare
you. Instead of resisting I would like to accept what is going on.
I don't have to jump up and down with joy about it, but I want to move into
acceptance because resistance just makes things worse and it makes it all
go on a lot longer than it would if I accepted what was happening. I KNOW
this and yet, I still resist :-). I will learn sooner or later. It feels better
having written it down :-). If any of you want to add your two cents
in about this topic, feel free. Have a lovely evening all.


Em said...

Living in, and accepting the now. Such an important skill to learn.... but oh so difficult...

mermaid said...

Dear Annie,

How often we beat ourselves up for not being better bodhisattvas. So much self hatred.

I wish you much loving kindness and compassion and space for your suffering, as I understand all too well what you discuss here.


Unknown said...

Annie dear...

I am glad you've figured out on the 'resistance' part. I've gone through such phases..too many times, ups and downs, successful and then rock bottom, but one thing I now know will work is to be positive..or at least I try hard to be positive. Somehow, the more we resist, the more it will I'm kind of done trying to figure that part out.

I hope you'll be happy always :D

Maryam in Marrakesh said...

hmmm...while I understand what you are saying about resistance, life is too short to do a job that you don't love or at least like.

Julie said...

I resist everything and need to stop it. I hope you have better luck than I have.

You really do inspire me though.

sukipoet said...

Or one could say, stop resisting resistance. Of course, the resistance is a metaphor, pointing its finger at something else to be looked at. So, it is a gift in a way. ?

Do you read kelly from Canada's blog? kikipotamus. I dont know the URL offhand but it is on my blog roll. She often talks about similar issues and her recent two posts were very insightful.

Be well, blissfull.

Annie Coe said...

Thank you for all the lovely comments...
Maryam-I agree, however I do love my job, just not as much as I love painting and writing :-).
Suki-I will check her out, thanks.

Anonymous said...

Hia Annie, just catching up- what lovely flowers! I hope your sinus infection clears up. I use thyme, lavender and eucalyptus in hot water and breathe in with a towel over my head.
What about turning your resistances into positives?
You would then read:
I am young at heart, I know what I want to do but am having a balance in my life and that will be good for me, I will fight this sinus infection as it is stopping me from doing what I enjoy fully, I am fighting for this tree to survive.

Does that help?

Kelly said...

I know exactly what you mean. I have also been exploring relaxing into what is rather than fighting it. Some days I can, some days it is the hardest thing in the world.