Monday, June 23, 2008

Living and dieing

This is Max on his favorite chair. He likes to talk to me
from this chair :-). I have been thinking a lot about death
and life. Lots of death and sickness has been happening
around me the past few months and then George Carlin
died. It has made me think more and more about how
we (I) get caught up with petty concerns about what has to
be done and how to be and act and what do I look like and
why did so and so do this and that, on and on until I all of
a sudden become present and realize none of any of it means
a hill of beans :-). The thing is any of us can die in the next
second, minute, today, tomorrow or twenty years from now.
No one knows how or when. Eckhart Tolle says, and I will tell it as I
remember it from one of his lectures: It may be two days or fifty
years, but when it comes, it will come too soon and it will be NOW.
What all this means for me is: How long will I waste anymore time
on petty, worthless things? I know it is hard to always
remember my path, I am human after all, so I am kind with
myself when I fail, but I continue to attempt to remember it
more and more and to live in the moment and to find some precious
thing, no matter how small in all my moments. OXOXOXOX
P.S. George, I loved you, rest in peace, dear man.


willowtree said...

Ahhhhh..... o-k-a-a-a-y

Maryam in Marrakesh said...

You are soooooo right. Thank you, thank you for this important reminder.

Unknown said...

My dearest Annie, we can't avoid death no matter what, today, tomorow or in 30 years time, no one will know exactly. What I do know is I have to live for now. I've lived a too adventurous or even dangereous life at times, so I really should slow down and think...which is hard at most times.

good reminder...but focus on the happier stuff while we can :)

hugs always

Paula In Pinetop said...

My motto:

Keep It Simple
Be Nice

sukipoet said...

Anne, with your brother's recent illness, I can understand how you might be contemplating these things. I myself am surrounded by illness and impending death of others at this moment re: SIL dying, ex-husband now with lung cancer, and Mom at age 90 surely nearing the end though of course she could outlive me and go on to be 105.

Love your pink curtains and the chair and kitty.

Yoli said...

My dear Annie, life is full of moments where we do nothing. However, in that nothingness a lot still happens. I am sorry about your brother, things like that always gets us thinking about mortality. The only thing you have right now, is this moment. You do not know anything else. So for now, I am going to be lazy, eat a piece of chocolate and watch my birds call out to strangers as they pass by that they are going to fart.

The important thing is to minimize suffering by as much as you humanly can. Do not consume yourself in grand projects, consume yourself in things that fill your soul. Always remember that pain is unavoidable but misery is optional.

Annie Coe said...

Thanks everyone.
Yoli-I agree-I don't always make myself clear, but it is the very things you talk about in your comment, that I find worth spending time on :-). Being lazy and reading in bed, watching the birds, walking in the forest...
Your birds really tell people that they are going to fart? :-).

Lorie McCown said...

Even before old Ekhart said it, God said it, 'it will come like a thief in the night'.. To be a little selfish, when you reach a certain *ahem* age, things start to fall away, in a good way. The stuff you used to worry about, seems trival. You are so young to come to this important conclusion. Keep making art!! And use it to bless others.

Annie Coe said...

Lorie M-How wise you are. Am I young? :-).

Lorie McCown said...

Yes, darling you are..:-)