Spike actually came out from under the bed this afternoon and sat on the sofa in the sun, I took this photo. I am thinking I may not have the chance to take many more. I do believe in miracles though and I have decided to do all I can this weekend to save his life. One day he seems better the next day not, so I am giving him another week maybe a little less or more and then I will be taking him to the vet and he will likely be put out of his misery. If he cannot have any joy in his life then I can't keep him alive just so I won't miss him. I won't let him suffer for months until he goes on his own by starving. I know what is going on is his kidneys and I know we have already done all we can do. By giving him fluids I have prolonged his life by 1 year and 4 months and I am so grateful for that. I have been thinking a lot about letting go and about getting old and dying. Finding a way to come to peace about it all. I am at peace what ever I need to do for Spike, we are taking it one day, one minute at a time. Today was a pretty good day. I appreciate all of your prayers and good thoughts, please continue :-). I will fight for my little guy, but I also want to know in my heart when to give up that fight and let him go. Love. XOXO
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Oh Annie, my heart goes out to you. And to Spike. He is such an adorable kitty. I hope he won't suffer...blessings from me and Henry. I know what a hard thing this is. Hugs..xoxox
minatAhh Poor Spike and poor you!
I know you will do what is best for your kitties.
This is the hard part but they deserve not to suffer.
Will be thinking of you and Spike......
Take care♥
so glad spike got some time in the sun, dear fellow. sometimes it is the kindest thing to let them go before more suffering happens. You have been a super mom for him and k know he lived a wonderful life in your home. blessings for spike.
Well, it looks like Spike is enjoying his moment in the sun... will be thinking of you guys.
Sending warm thoughts & hugs.
Thank you for posting the photo. It makes me feel close to him when I am praying for him.
This is a difficult thing to do, but you have the bravery to do this final thing for Spike, taking him away from his pain and illness and giving him the gift of light. I will be thinking of you today, dear Annie, and I will send Reiki to you on an ongoing basis.
So glad Spike got to lay in the warm sun today.
Oh, that's so difficult and I"m sorry.
i'm sorry annie. i hope you'll both be okay. spike is a beautiful kitty. and he surely knows you love him.
i forgot to say how lovely the photo is.
Hi Annie, Sorry to hear Spike isn't feeling well. I am sure he will tell you when he is ready to go...they always do.
Victoria
It´s heartbreaking when you have to take this kind of decision. I´m sure you´ll do the best for poor Spike.
A big hug for Spike and you.
I didn´t know your blog but I´m going to follow it from now on.
Hugs hugs hugs Annie, I know just what you are going through. I can only say that Angel fought and the vet fought until Angel decided that she had had enough. It takes courage to do the right thing when it is so painful but Spike will tell you.
I think there is a cat place at Rainbow Bridge where they too can stalk in long grass, play and sunbathe pain and injury free.
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