Saturday, February 19, 2011

Circling Around Trust

This photo has nothing to do with the post, I just think it's pretty :-). Life lately has been tough. There are a lot of things that happen that I choose to not write about here. Family issues, money issues and health issues are not things I really want to share, though sometimes I do. Lately I choose to keep them to myself or close friends. Many things have been weighing heavily of late and I have been having trouble sleeping. I worry, then I circle back round to trust. It always comes back to trust. Trusting what you may ask? Trusting myself and my intuition, trusting that I know or will know the right course of action. Trust in spirit, that I will be given all I need to move to the next step. Then I wake up and worry again, do my "Process", worry, process, but I always end up right back at trust. My goal is to just go to trust and leave all the worry in the trash where it belongs :-). Any thoughts on trust are welcome. Happy Saturday! XOXO


secret agent woman said...

Easier said than done, eh? This is something I struggle with constantly.

Laura said...

trust is a tricky thing indeed. I offered a sacred writing exercise to the women in the Khanti Healing Circle I moderate at Dharma Sisters Circle this past week. Essentially, the invitation was to sit in silence for 2 minutes, write for five minutes only stopping to return to breath if anxiety arises and one feels "stuck" and then to return to writing (not reading as one writes...just staying in flow)...beginning from a word that expresses where you are on your healing journey. My word was "trust." I found it to be a very heart expanding experience...I noticed several things about my body and my breath and my emotions as I was writing and then when I read what I wrote back to myself aloud. Perhaps a practice like this could help you with some of your current circling anxiety. I don't couldn't hurt:)

May you feel safe.
May you feel happy.
May you feel peaceful and whole
one breath at a time.

Jos said...

I sense some synchronicity here Annie. I have been reading about learning to trust this week. This passage in particular soke powerfully to me ...

"Trust can be one of the most confusing concepts in life. Who do we trust ? For what ?

The most important trust issue we face is learning to trust ourselves. The most detrimental thing that's happened to us is that we came to believe we couldn't trust ourselves.

There will be some who tell us we cannot trust ourselves, we are off base and out of whack. There are those who would benefit by our mistrusting ourselves. Fear and doubt are our enemies. Panic is our enemy. Confusion is our opposition.

Self-trust is a healing gift we can give ourselves. How do we acquire it ? We learn it. What do we do about our mistakes, about those times we thought we could trust ourselves but were wrong ? We accept them and trust ourselves anyway.

We know what is best for us. We know what is right for us. If we are wrong, if we need to change our mind, we will be guided into that - but only by trusting where we are today. We can look to others for support and reinforcement, but trust in ourselves is essential.

Do not trust fear. Do not trust panic. We can trust ourselves, stand in our own truth, stand in our own light. We have it now. We have all the light we need for today. And tomorrow's light shall be given to us then. Trust ourselves, and we will know whom to trust. Trust ourselves and we will know what to do !"

What I found particularly powerful was that self trust is a healing gift one can give to oneself. I never thought about it like that.

Much love to you Annie, and happy weekend. xx Jos

sukipoet said...

i am sorry to hear you are in this difficult place. you have received some wonderful comments on trust here. i too believe we know best for ourselves. if the path we chose doesnt work out, then its okay to step back and asses and go in another direction. we just cant know the answers about the future. being present in the present moment will take us where we need to go. Blessings, suki

yoborobo said...

Oh, Annie. I am so worn out right now that I am no help at all! :) All I can say (without knowing what is going on) is that your inner voice is usually right. I am thinking of you and sending you love & hugs - xox Pam

Unknown said...

I don't know if this 'fits in' with trust but it feels right for you right now. I mean it feels right for me to be giving this to you: a quote on one side of a bird I made: "Hope is the thing with feathers That perches in the soul...And sings the tune without words And never all" (Emily Dickinson) and on the other side of the bird it says: "By encouraging and affirming my feelings of hopelessness, I open the possibility of something else" (this is the affirmation part of my bird). The universe is your partner and it does its' part but remember you are the other half of the partnership. *smiles* Norma

studio lolo said...

Annie, there's some wonderful, loving advice here. Perhaps you should work on seeing where the lack of trust was first an issue in your life. Sounds like past wounds which all of us have, sadly.

I wish you love and blessings in sorting it all out.


Anonymous said...

I will offer you back the same words you gave me when I was going through a rough time once. You said, "Whatever happens, Kelly, Spirit is aways there with us and we are safe, we are loved and everything leads to breakthroughs." You also said to me at another time, "Trust where you are. Love where you are."

Sending you light and love, K

becky said...

I hear you, Annie... I try to keep those things off the blog. too. And, well you know I have trust issues in terms of things working out the way I'd like, though they usually tend to work out some way or the other, even if it's not always the way I'd planned or wanted. You seem to be better at trusting in that sense. I think sometimes it comes in moments. Moments of trust, of feeling peaceful, of knowing it'll all be ok. May you have many of those moments dear Annie.
Hugs :)

Lori ann said...

dear annie,your photo IS pretty, and your title for this post is lovely too.

my mother used to tell me, whenever i would worry, to do what i could about something and then to let it go. and yes, to trust that things always have a way of working themselves out.

there is a meditation practice called tonglen, 'taking in and sending out'. this is truly helpful to me in times of stress in my life.

from the book 'always maintain a joyful mind' by pema chodron...

' whatever problems occur in your life, instead of reacting to them in the usual habitual way, you could transform them into the path of the bodhi heart. that is to say, you could awaken your compassionate and open heart. use the tonglen approach and breathe in the pain of the situation, wishing that all beings could be free of it. then breathe out and send loving-kindness to all suffering beings, including yourself!'

sometimes it helps to write about it. i can never get over the endless love and support in blogland. and i don't think i've told you before, but just looking at your art makes me happy.


Annie said...

Secret Agent-Yes :-). xoxo
Laura-This is so helpful, thank you for all your heartfelt comments, they mean a lot.xoxo
Jos-You are so wise and thoughtful. I love you dear friend and I owe you an email. xoxo
Suki-Thank you sweetie, xoxo
Pam-Thank you! Get some rest! xoxo
Norma-Thank you for this lovely comment, that is one of my favorite Emily Dickinson poems :-).
Lo-Yes you are right. Thank you for the lovely words. xoxo
Kelly-Beautiful, thank you sweetie.xoxo
Becky-Thank you! I can never do anything but trust when it comes right down to it, I don't know what else to do :-). xoxo
Lori-Thank you, I love your dear heart, beautiful meditation, I will try it. xoxo

Mim said...

I have no urgent words of advice except that you do need to trust your gut feelings. Mine usually don't fail me - altho it's sometimes a while before I understand that.
I hope it all works out for you - details be damned.

kj said...

dear annie, i have two quotes of my own:

1. once you trust myself, trusting someone else is never an issue.


2. trust in god, but tie up your camel.

i know that worries and demands can pile up. some should be ignored; others must be dealt with. often i think knowing which is which is the key to the city.

take care, annie, with love

Lubna said...

Annie: I've gone through this recently. I've suffered from sleepless nights, which further adds to the toil and trouble. Yes, at times it is essential to leave your troubles (those which you cannot solve) to a higher power, call the higher power God, if you aren't an atheist.
Yet, at the same time, while we cannot on occasions control what life hands us, we can with our attitude change a lot of things.
Talk to close friends, Annie, don't keep things bottled up. You need to share your troubles to be able to deal with things better. After all, man has been designed to be a social animal. Blogs help in interaction and do result in close friends (I consider you one), but hearing someone's voice over the phone, or being able to hug someone and cry is a different thing altogether. Hugs from over the seas.

Silke Powers said...

Dear Annie, I could so identify with your post!! Sending you a big hug and an e-mail... Love, Silke

Annie said...

Mim-Thank you sweetie.xoxo
Kj-You are right, I have to decide if I can do anything about mine :-). xoxo
Lubna-Thank you sweetie, I count you as a friend too, but somethings I cannot write about here because it concerns family and my mom has asked me to not blog about her stuff anymore, so I have to honor that.xoxo
Silke-Thank you and thank you for your sweet email too! xoxo

Unknown said...

Dearest Annie, sorry things have been rough. I always believe that whatever happens, happens for a reason, good or bad. dont worry so much as I am sure things will turn out just alright for you. Love/m