Since B passed on I have been very introspective. Thinking a lot about life and loss, sadness and joy. For a long while now I have known that for my spiritual practice I wanted to learn to love my life, no matter what. Most times I succeed. When times are tough, like when a beloved pet dies, or I don't have money or time to do the things I love, that practice gets tested. To me, this means that is is even more important to find a way to love my life. If you are only happy when things are going smooth, that limits you. As we all know life is not smooth most of the time.
I try not to depend on others for my joy, that is also very limiting. Most of us have so much, even those like me, who have very little, still has more than 75% of the world. We are so blessed, yet we pick at the things that are not perfect in our lives. The past two weeks were hard. I cried a lot, but tears are a blessing and I did not try to stop the flow. It is important to grieve. I picked up B's ashes on Friday and that was very emotional, but also a release.
You can't go through life without loss. I have been reflecting on all the wonderful things I have going for me. Family, friends, bloggy friends, great clients, talent, 3 beautiful animal boys, a roof over my head, food on the table ( I made a yummy squash soup yesterday!) new ceramics drying on my shelves, sunshine and mountains outside. It does not matter who you are, you have something to be thankful for. I make myself remember this, daily. No matter what.
Feast on life, love your life. Happy Sunday!!! XOXO
