Wednesday, October 24, 2012


I have returned home from my old home and it was painful. It was also healing. It was wonderful to be with my family. I do have some photos to share later, but for now I want to give you this, it sums up how I am feeling right now: 

The Road Between

To stand up and be worn
to something deeper
is a pledge that living
forces us to keep

I drove 500 miles down the California coast with the mountains on the left and the ocean on the right. For days they spoke to me of standing up and wearing down. Of course, I was driving a road we have made down the middle. During the fourth day, the road became a ribbon. It was here it was most beautiful.
I found the world out there all in here, and now I know:
The current of life requires us to stand up, again and again, and we are not defeated when we are worn down, just exposed anew at a deeper level. We are meant to live between the two.
In this way, life keeps getting more and more precious.
It is a natural law like gravity or osmosis: Stand up to be worn bare. It is how everything in the way is thinned, so we can feel just how thoroughly alive we are.
-Mark Nepo-
I am worn down, but still standing.
I will get back to visiting blogs soon.


kj said...

i love you very much, annie. i think you are brave and smart and always an A plus for effort. i hope you settle home into a safe nest of your animals and friends and art and mountains. xoxo


~Babs said...

Such authenticity in these words you've written, Annie.
Painful, healing, family,,,,,
I'm glad you're home and still standing.

Lynn Cohen said...

Welcome home!

Annie said...

Kj, you made me cry, in a good way.
I love you too.xoxo

Babs, Thank you, xoxo

Lynn, Thank you, xoxo

angela recada said...

Welcome back, dear Annie. I can't possibly say what I want to say better than our dear kj. I'll just nod my head vigorously and add, "me too!"

This part of the quote: "The current of life requires us to stand up, again and again, and we are not defeated when we are worn down, just exposed anew at a deeper level." - oh my, this is so true, isn't it?

You have braved through another of life's hurdles, Sweetie, and you have survived and become even stronger.

Love you,

Annie said...

Angela, Thank you darling. Yes, I have walked through another fire and I am deeper and more in tune than ever before. xoxo

Annie said...

Angela, P.S. Love you too. xoxo

Houseelf said...

Welcome home and back to Blogland Annie. As I was reading I was reminded of the cliffs surrounding Lulworth Cove which we visited this Summer. The layers are exposed from where they were forced up from the ground by tectonic plates millions of years ago. Now they have the sea, salt air and walkers. They remain beautiful with secret coves and havens for wildlife.

I think you are very like them.

Judy Shreve said...

Welcome back Annie - I don't know how I missed this beautiful post.

You've summed up in such authentic words what it's like to go thru and survive one of the hardest moments in our lives -- to lose a parent. It's not just the loss of love - they seem to take a bit of our history and identity when they pass.

Your strength soars through your words. I hope as kj has said so well - 'settle into that safe nest of home and friends your art and those beautiful mountains.'


sukipoet said...

glad you are back. a journey of the soul and heart.

Mim said...

Glad you had a healing visit to your old home. Rest now and regroup

soulbrush said...

What a trek, what a blessing to be able to do this. Home is where the heart is. xxx

becky said...

I have been thinking of you Annie & wondering if you were back yet. Sending hugs & love your way.

ArtPropelled said...

Another of life's difficult milestones... and you are back to share inspiring words of wisdom. I've been wondering how you were feeling going back in time and place, reliving so many memories. Enjoy being home with Bella while you heal in your own good time. Nothing like one's animal kids to help one heal! xox