Full Circle

My angst and struggling have gone full circle into acceptance and the realization that I don't need anything in my life to be different. Funny how I am constantly going back and forth between these two states :-). The one thing that has changed as I have grown older, is the space of time between when I am struggling to acceptance gets shorter, and the space of time from Acceptance back to struggle takes longer :-). Progress is made, however slowly. Happy Saturday!

Taos Mountain

This is what my beautiful mountain looks like right now, I will be taking more photos of it as the snow days pass. It is so lovely covered in snow, don't you think? The snow has stopped for a couple days, but due back on Monday and Tuesday, I am hoping that it does not interfere with my travel plans, the airport is 3 hours away, so the snow could be a problem, but I am attempting no to worry :-). Trying to be oh so Zen and detach from outcome, easier said than done :-). I received a lovely card from two friends in San Francisco, B and K. They just celebrated 40 years together! I just wanted to say, wow! If you are reading this, I am so happy for you both! You are my shiny example of a relationship that works. That's all for me tonight.

Much love.

Struggling

For the last few weeks I have been struggling with something and I thought I would ask you all what you do when you need to let go of a person, someone you love very much. How do you do it? How do you stop loving someone? Or is letting go different than not loving? I can easily put a stop to negative thoughts and even not thinking about this person, but then wham I am thinking of them and when I do I feel sad. I know I am not the first who has had to deal with this, so if any of you have some sure fire remedy please share :-). Thanks.

Contemplative

I took this picture today. It has been snowing non-stop. I love how everything gets so quiet when it snows. This is how I am feeling these days, quiet and contemplative, calm and accepting. Gearing up for when I leave next week to go home for the holidays, it will be a busy and fun time. What are you doing for Christmas (if you celebrate it) ? XOXO

Passion for Art

This is going to be a post about art. Art fills up my life, not just making art, but looking at it as well, and I wanted to tell you about some of the artists I am passionate about. I don't know about sharing photos, so to be safe I will just provide links. First up a man I am madly in love with and would be stalking if he were alive is Willem de Kooning. Talk about passion, this man painted with so much passion his canvases are on fire. Next, a woman who lived in Taos, her name is Rebecca James and she painted wonderful reverse paintings on glass, she was also married to the famous photographer Paul Strand. Moving on to the living: my #1 favorite artist is Cecily Brown. She is younger than me and way famous and well she should be, she amazes me with each new work, knocks me out. My dream is to see one of her paintings in the flesh. Another painter I am in awe of is lucian Freud, he is the grandson of Sigmund freud and he is one of the best painters I have ever seen. I could look at his work for hours and never get tried of it. One artist that is at the top of her game is Jenny Saville. Her work is often disturbing and I probably would not be able to live with most of it, but her handling of paint is exquisite. Last but not least is a local man and a friend of mine and I think his paintings are delicious, Jack Smith, scroll down midway on this link to see Jack's paintings.
Now you know a bit more about me.
If you are an art lover, please share with me the artists you are inspired by. Happy Sunday.

Quiet

That is how I feel today, so nothing to say, but I will give you this tiny bit of beauty I found in the snow the other day. Happy weekend, everyone.

Doves

I took this photo the other morning when it was cloudy and still somewhat dark outside. These are my doves, there are about five, that live in my neighborhood. They come and eat in my yard everyday and I have fallen in love with them, I adore their plaintive call and how gentle and careful they are. I also love their sand like color and these doves all have a half circle of a black ring around their necks. When I am sad or sometimes a little lost, nature in all it's glory is the one thing that can always make me smile, no matter what. What makes you smile when you are sad? XOXO