Tuesday, September 11, 2012


This is the hardest post I have ever written. It has been 3 days of touch and go. I have been waiting in the wings to go home and it looks like I am not going to make it. Taos is not a place where you can just hop on a plane, the airport is 3 hours away, to get anywhere takes at least 8 hours. I can't get Bella into the kennel until Thursday and my mom will be gone by then. She is not going to recover. Bella is not the kind of dog you can just drop off at a friends house. Too many issues. If mom is still with us by Friday I may make it, but the doctors have all said she won't be. I have to lend support from here. Talk to her from here. I know she feels my love and I know that is really all that counts. I will be going home at some point for my brothers and for the funeral, but for now I am here and I have to believe everything is as it should be because that is my faith.
Thank you all for your prayers. Love. XOXO


Judy Shreve said...

Oh Annie - I know how hard this must be for you. I always lived far away and went through the same thing with both my parents. You so want to be there. But you are right - that your mom can feel your love and you are exactly where you are supposed to be.

And I am so sorry you are losing her - our parents take a piece of our history with them when they go. And leave a huge hole in our hearts. Being with your brothers and sharing memories of her will help. I am glad you will be able to do that.

I wish I were there to give you a big warm hug. Stay strong while giving in to your grief. Time does help.

Lots of hugs and prayers.

Lynn Cohen said...


Houseelf said...

Big hugs Annie. Your Mum knows and feels your love. That is what matters the most. Help her celebrate her life and talk to her all you can.

angela recada said...

Dearest Annie, I am so very sorry this is happening. You are so wise to know that your mom can feel your love. There is no bond stronger than that of mother and child. You are doing all you can, and everything is as it should be. I am so glad you have your brothers to share your grief, your sadness, and a lifetime of memories with.

Sending love and hugs and prayers, dear friend,

~Babs said...

This is so hard, I understand the not being there,,,,so hard.I've always been the one who lives away also.Never easy when the big crunch comes.
Big hug from here too.

yoborobo said...

Annie, I am so sorry to hear this. Your mom knows how much you love her, so take some comfort in that. And take good care of yourself, my friend. Love & hugs to you - xoxox

Mim said...

Many hugs to you Annie

kj said...

dear annie, i am so sorry. i wish i could say something that would help. i wish i could take bella for you. i wish you Mother may wait for you. Most of all, i wish that you know your love wraps your arms around her and she will tuck that love under her angel wing and take that love with her when she leaves.

judy's comment is so wise and true. you have friends here, annie, and our hearts will follow yours in this time of loss


Barbara/myth maker said...

Oh Annie, I am so sorry to hear of this. I will pray for you to have strength.

ArtPropelled said...

Oh Annie, this must be so hard for you. Thinking of you and sending love.

Lubna said...

I am so sorry to hear this, I visited your blog after ages. Yes, it will take time to get used to the fact, that you can't see or touch your Mum, but you will be able to feel her kind presence, she will always be with you. Hugs.