Thursday, February 25, 2010

Being Alive

This week has been one of waiting. Waiting to hear what is happening with our dear friend, Renee. But it has also been a week of living. If Renee, has taught me anything (she has taught me many, many things), it is that today is all we have, this moment, this now. I may be healthy, but a million things can happen in a life, my life could go at any second. It is true for all of us.
I don't know about you, but I want my life to count for something, I want it to be full of friends (it is), joy(most times) and I want my now to be alive. I want to experience all the life and light and nectar of each and every moment. I don't want to waste anymore time on: unhappiness, anger, bitterness, resentment, judgement or pain. My goal (it has been a goal for a long, long time, but Renee has made it seem more urgent than ever) is to love my life, no matter what.
To find the medicine in suffering and to embrace every experience that comes my way. Some good, some bad, happens in each life, what counts is how we deal with it. Some days I am full of self pity, then I think of our wonderful Renee and I am ashamed. No matter what the difficulty's, life is magic, it is a dream and I want to row my boat down stream and nod to every being, and creature and fairy. Love you. XOXO
P.S. When ever I get stressed I sing that wonderful song, Row, row, row your boat gently down the stream, merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily life is but a dream. There is a world of wisdom in those words if you stop to think about it :-).


ExtraO said...

yes, there is! :-)

angela recada said...

Renee has taught us many things, hasn't she? She embraced every minute of her life this last year. Even when she was in terrible pain, she still rejoiced that she was ALIVE.

She has been an inspiration in my life, and so are you, dear Annie. I wish you a long life filled with magic and love and joy and miracles.

Hugs and love,

Annie said...

EOM- Yes, you get it :-)!
Angela-Thank you, dear Angela. I wish you the same and more.

sukipoet said...

me too. i get enmeshed in so much self-pity, but when i think of Renee and others like her in this world, i am ashamed. Embrace the Pippi in the world.

Mary Ellen said...

I found Renee's site only late this year, and I regret the too-short time of acquaintance - and am amazed at how many lives she touched. An inspiration.

Anonymous said...

Yes life is there to be loved. Coming to your blog reminds me of this. I think you will keep Renee's inheritance going and pass her lessons on.

Annie said...

Suki-Yes, I laughed out loud, Pippi, is alive and well here :-).
Mary Ellen-I found her late too, but better later than never!
Melanie-Your sweet words made me smile.xoxo

Suzanne said...

I'm uplifted and inspired, Annie. I have the feeling of Renee being at peace. She sounds like a wonderful person. Thank you for sharing your love of her and of life.

Mimi Lenox said...

"I want my now to be alive"

Well said.

Unknown said...

You are so right. Our days are not guaranteed, our choice is how we live each one day by day. I hadn't thought of that song in that way, but it is actually very deep. love ya.

kj said...

here i am! aha! blogger DID eat my comment.

so i'll say it all again. i love this post. you are inspirational annie, and i know you mean every word.

this reminded me of something i say sometimes when i am presenting my happiness workshops.

for every three row row row your boat, your get four merrily's. not a bad investment, right?

love to you annie. i know we are all on watch about our beloved renee. i so wish comfort for her. and i miss her like nobody's business.

Annie said...

Suzanne-Thank you, and you are welcome. xoxo
Mimi-Thank you :-).xoxo
Shiny-Yes, yes it is. Love you too. xoxo
Kj-Thank you. Yes, we are all on watch and blowing kisses, saying prayers and lighting candles. I miss her too, more than I can say.
Love you. xoxo

Erin Davis said...

Beautiful post, Annie. And "to find the medicine in suffering" might be the best piece of poetry I've read all week... :0)

old pajamas said...


I think the poems/songs of Leonard Cohen divine...

Annie said...

Erin-I wish I could take total credit for that, but I read it somewhere and just remember it always. It is beautiful...xoxo
OP-I love him too!

Annie said...

Kj-I forgot to add that I love what you said about the song, lovely :-). xoxo

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