Being Alive

This week has been one of waiting. Waiting to hear what is happening with our dear friend, Renee. But it has also been a week of living. If Renee, has taught me anything (she has taught me many, many things), it is that today is all we have, this moment, this now. I may be healthy, but a million things can happen in a life, my life could go at any second. It is true for all of us.
I don't know about you, but I want my life to count for something, I want it to be full of friends (it is), joy(most times) and I want my now to be alive. I want to experience all the life and light and nectar of each and every moment. I don't want to waste anymore time on: unhappiness, anger, bitterness, resentment, judgement or pain. My goal (it has been a goal for a long, long time, but Renee has made it seem more urgent than ever) is to love my life, no matter what.
To find the medicine in suffering and to embrace every experience that comes my way. Some good, some bad, happens in each life, what counts is how we deal with it. Some days I am full of self pity, then I think of our wonderful Renee and I am ashamed. No matter what the difficulty's, life is magic, it is a dream and I want to row my boat down stream and nod to every being, and creature and fairy. Love you. XOXO
P.S. When ever I get stressed I sing that wonderful song, Row, row, row your boat gently down the stream, merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily life is but a dream. There is a world of wisdom in those words if you stop to think about it :-).

Animal Wednesday

These are my doves, they live in this tree near my house and I feed them. If you look closely

you will see the magpie in the tree too. Happy Wednesday. XOXO

Snow Day.

My trip to Santa Fe was to be today, but this is what I woke up to. Santa Fe is an hour and a half away and to get there from Taos you have to drive through the mountains or through a canyon and snow makes it dangerous and no fun.

The last two weeks I have been working 12 hour days between work and getting my photos ready, so today I get to do NOTHING! I am looking forward to eating, and reading and blogging and not much else besides taking my dog for a snow walk.

I hope you all have a wonderful day and please keep dear Renee in your thoughts and prayers.

xoxoxo

Our Beautiful Renee

She is leaving us. I am filled with sadness, but also I want her suffering to end.
Many of you know and love Renee as much as I do, I share my sadness with you and send you love as I know you are in pain too. Many of you don't know Renee, I am sorry for you as I cannot imagine not knowing Renee. Renee is one of the bravest, dearest angels that ever walked on the earth, that is why we all love her so much. The next few days will be dark indeed. I do believe that death is an illusion and that Renee is just needed elsewhere, but dammit I will miss her so much! XOXO

New ceramics to share

Fresh from the kiln. I took some quick photos to share, a new bowl, wall hangings, pendant,

gift tags and earrings, all porcelain and handbuilt. Let me know what you think...

In other news: I did not make it to Santa Fe this week due to work, but we are trying for this coming Monday. I am still perfecting my photos so I have been busy and had very little time to visit most of you, I am thinking of you just the same.

Please keep Renee in your prayers.

Love you. xoxo

Happy Valentine's Day!

This is a little Valentine to all my heart sisters and to all my friends and family (kj started it). I went around my house and took snapshots of every heart I could see. It would take too long to tell you about each one, but most of it is my art, old and new, also a few pieces that were from friends. The beautiful bag with the sewn heart and the dish towel were gifts from the wonderful Melanie, that she made for me. The top picture is my cat Spike :-). If you have a question about any of the photos leave a comment and I will answer your question. Have a happy Valentine's, me? I will be spending it with my boys and porcelain, the loves of my life ♥ .

P.S. Please pray or send good thoughts to the beautiful Renee who is very sick and in the hospital.

Animal Wednesday

This is my youngest, Max. If there is a box, or a bag or a clean basket of laundry, Max dives in!

Sorry, I am not around much this week. I am busy getting photos of my art photo shopped and put on CD's so I can take them to Santa Fe. An artist friend and I are going looking for new galleries to show our work next week. Santa Fe is a bit easier than New York, but not much. Right now it is a slow time for the galleries, so we want to hit while they are bored and hopefully looking for something new. Happy Wednesday! XOXO ♥

Reminder

I have been reminded this week in various ways about who and what I am.
I am spirit, first and foremost, in a body. I KNOW this inside my heart to be true.
I can be and do anything I desire within some sort of self defined limits. I am always loved, always cared for. I don't have to worry about what will happen tomorrow, but keep my eyes on NOW.
It is true that sometimes this old ego in the body takes over and drives me to worry and fret, to blame and anger, but I don't have to listen to it, I can turn my attention elsewhere. I can look
out at the sparkling snow, I can listen to the rain hit the roof, I can watch the birds or the sunset or a leaf falling to the ground. It always seems that nature grounds me and calls me back to who I am, always reminds me of the grandeur that abounds.
I am spirit, I am light as a feather and if I could only remember this I would be carefree.
Care Free. Happy Go Lucky.
No matter what happens, embrace whatever pain comes, it will leave, it never stays.
Live. Breathe. Smile. Love. Spirit.
Wishing you a carefree weekend.
Love you mom. Love you Renee.
XOXOXOXO ♥

New painting in progress

Just to prove that I am actually working on a painting, I took photos so you could see some of the detail so far. I will show you the whole painting when it is finished (which could be a few months from now). (Click on the image to enlarge).

I know I have been posting mostly photos lately, but sometimes I have things to say and sometimes I am brooding :-). Right now I am in brooding mode.

I also have a prayer, good thoughts request: My dear, darling Renee is in real pain and her mother is dying, please keep her in your thoughts and send her some love.

Have a happy week. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo ♥