Tuesday, June 2, 2009

My Adventure in Trust

This life I am living is turning into something I never dreamed nor even thought of.
A life lived moment to moment (as it should be)accepting whatever comes and falling in love with it on a daily basis. Is there stress? Yes, if I allow myself to worry and listen to the stories my mind cooks up. Do I give in to stress? Sometimes, but less and less as I trust more and more.
What exactly am I trusting? First, I trust spirit, I trust the direction I get from spirit and I trust myself. Just as all jobs were done, and bills were paid, I got a little nervous because I had nothing scheduled and knew what little I had left would not last long. Then like clockwork I got three calls for jobs. The phone is silent for two weeks then three calls in one day :-). And the best part is that I have a lot more wonderful time to do my art and play and visit friends. I am more able to live in the now and trust more everyday. When I start to get nervous I ask myself if after 53 years of being superbly taken care of, spirit would suddenly take time off :-).
How much do you trust? Any stories to tell about how trust and bravery paid off?
Happy Tuesday! XOXO


maninthemoonherbs said...

I try and trust the Universe to supply what I need. One day as I was paying bills I realized I had just enough money to pay what was due. This had happened several weeks in a row. I said to the Universe "It would be nice if you gave me an extra five bucks" Lo and behold, when I paid all the bills the next week I had $5 left over! Now I just trust- most of the time. : )

Annie said...

Maninthemoonherbs-Sweet story, I wonder what would have happened if you asked for more than 5 dollars, like 500 :-)?

Unknown said...

Wonderful post Annie, really admire you for this. I used to be a huge worrier..anything that could happens, you'll find me not sleeping the whole night. However, Ive given up this habit. So instead of worrying my head off, I try to focus on the law of attraction, trusting in the spirit too that everything will be ok. And that when I look back one day, that particular worry was not needed and whatever was the problem then will pass. I've gone through many problems - mainly work related. At one time, I thought my world would collapse and it could leave me and many people who left their previous company to join me will be jobless..but it was not meant to be. It turned out well. I am with you my dear friend, we have to trust the spirit and also in return trusting ourselves. Much love...m

Yoli said...

My dear Annie, passing my on my insomniac slippers. I have always lived by this quote: "Jump off the cliff and build your wings on the way down."

When I was at my lowest point in life (jobless no prospects)is when I realized just how strong I was and how little I needed. Leaving you with a quote from my favorite person:

"The period of greatest gain in knowledge and experience is the most difficult period in one's life. Through a difficult period you can learn; you can develop inner strength, determination, and courage to face the problems." ~ His Holiness the Dalai Lama

Anonymous said...

That is so wonderful Annie, I am so happy for you. Huge hugs and a lot of bouncing like Tigger here.

Janice Lynne Lundy said...

What a lovely post. Here is one of my many trust stories.

While going through a very difficult divorce, I was pretty much penniless. I was living in a small apartment above a store with my (then 10-year-old) daughter. Child support wasn't forthcoming yet and I had only been a part time working mom. So I had to find ways to supplement my income yet still be available to my daughter, mostly through freelance writing.

Within weeks of this new "adventure", I learned that if I completely trusted where the money would come from (including rent) everything always worked out. I had a budget of $17 a week for food. By mid-week, though, that money would often be gone, so I learned to shop for groceries at Save A Lot or at the Dollar Store, plus a $4 pizza night at Hungry Howies helped. By week's end, my daughter and I were left with pizza crusts, but inevitably something would show up in my mailbox, the phone would ring with a job, or a dear elderly friend of mine would call to invite us out for a meal.

Bless his heart, he would foot the bill, plus make us order extra food to take home. :-) Then he would fill my car up with gas. He would never let me repay him. He said he was just so glad for the company of "two lovely ladies." Thanks to him (he was my angel), and continuous trust in the Universe, we made it through this rough period. It lasted 14 months. My daughter went to bed hungry only once, and for that I am grateful...

I am so glad you are trusting the universe with all your heart and soul. It WILL work you are seeing. Much love to you this day, Annie. Thanks for letting me tell my story...

Annie said...

M.Kate-So glad you dropped the worry habit :-).
Yoli-Thanks for that. xoxo
Melanie-Hugs back :-).
Jan-Thanks you so much for sharing your story. Trusting is key, no trust things fall apart and the jobs and money dry up. You kept your head and trusted and I am so glad you made it through :-).

Suzanne said...

Your post and the stories in the comments are so nourishing to me.

I just feel this wiggly impatience inside of wanting to let go and fly free. I heard someone say once that when we trust, we let go of one trapeze to go to the next one, it's scary, but in that moment we are flying.

This is a wonderful post, Annie. It's so timely for me this morning for yesterday I made another choice to let go of a trapeze. I really appreciate your trust and your wonderful experience!

sukipoet said...

its nice to hear how trust is working for you. at the moment i need to remember this.

LaurieW said...
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LaurieW said...

Hi Annie,

I have been keeping up on your blog about Trust and how you are coping with it. I now find myself in the same situation of having to trust moment by moment that things will be taken care of (bills, etc.) since I no longer have a steady income of my own. Being 53 makes me now reflect on my life much more and I am finding that Trust that there is a higher power taking care of things that are out of my control is really coming into focus. Believe it or not you are a real inspiration to me and have helped me discover that is much more out there than just the ordinary every day stuff.

Hope your Mom is doing okay. I know I need to call her and am at a point in my life where I will call her as I have time (for a change).

Love you,

Unknown said...

a big topic,
let me think, and I will reply on my place. (I tend to be long winded, and will try to condense)

Annie said...

Suzanne-If we only knew how free we really are, what a life we could live.
Suki-Trust will work for you too, xoxo.
LaurieW-I was so touched by your comment. I am happy I am helping.
Yes, call my mom :-). Love you too.
Emom-Can't wait to hear.

Lori said...

Here is one of my trust stories. I have a lot of them:)

Many years ago I was in a job situation that I just couldn't take anymore. I was getting all kinds of signs that it was time to leave but I stayed there because of my fear of leaving a good paying and stable job.

Something happened with my job and I couldn't stand it anymore. I gave my notice and when I did I felt such relief. I didn't realize at the time that the relief was my inner guidance letting me know that I was doing the right thing.

I left my job on a Friday afternoon with no job prospects in sight but I knew leaving was the right thing for me to do. It's hard to explain but I just knew everything was going to be fine. As I was saying my goodbyes one of our producers asked me what job I was leaving for. I told him I didn't have a job lined up but I was looking. He said he was doing some freelance work for a company that was looking for an associate producer and handed me the number for the hiring manager. I called the manager on Monday and was offered the job that afternoon and started my new job that same week at double my old salary.

I'm learning to trust the inner guidance that I get even when everything around me looks like it's falling apart. It's never let me down.

Unknown said...

I am still in the middle of my trust adventure and in that i believe i will come out of it maybe my issue of trust, but everything does take time.

YogaforCynics said...

Trust, particularly trusting other people, had definitely been a difficult one--as I had my trust betrayed so many times early in life (as Bob Dylan sang "I offered up my innocence, I got repaid with scorn"). For that reason, though, I've often been surprised by the wonderful friends I have, who tend to come through for me again and again, anyway....

The word verification is "bionista"--would that be some kind of bionic Central American revolutionary?