I have always wanted this blog to be a happy place to come, but lately I have had so much sad news that it has become a place to ask for help and prayers. I have so many friends and family who are sick and some are dying and two sick kitties and here it is Christmas. I had word last night that my cousin R is not good, he is losing his battle with the big C. I am beyond sad. I do realize that death is part of life and I do not fear death, I KNOW that our spirit does not die, it is only that it seems that so often the ending is so full of ugly pain. I wonder about the why of this and I do believe it is because we cling to life, if we could just let go perhaps it would not be so painful. I hate all of it and I am one who tends to feel the pain of others. I have dealt with it over the years and can do very well most of the time, but right now I am struggling.
All is not lost though, I do know that the pain will stop, this is just a bump in the road. I have a good blogging friend who told me the other day that she was going to be the happiest depressed person ever, it made me smile and I will be the happiest sad person ever, because despite what goes on, despite the fact that I want to hide under the covers and run from the heartache, I know I won't, I know I will make it through and that there will be unknown gifts along the way.
I am full of gratitude for my health and I have so very much to be grateful for.
Would you send good thoughts to R and please to his family and to Renee who is feeling very ill.
Thank you so much and I promise this blog will get happy again soon(fingers crossed). XOXO