BLISSFUL-BOHEMIAN

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Loving my life...

I have been a little blue lately, due mostly to those darn hormones, but today the clouds lifted and I realized again for the millionth time that to be happy one must accept what is, and not just accept it, but embrace it, love it even. This is my wish: To fall in love with my life, just as it is warts and all. I may paint for the rest of my life and never make a living at it, I love painting and will do it even if I never sell another painting, so why be sad because I am not one of the lucky few who make it? I may never meet a man I can love and live with (sometimes it is hard to find that perfect combination :-), but I have tons of lovely friends and my four animal boys, so I am never lonely and I am a loner by nature, so perhaps it is a blessing in disguise. I will trust that whatever is going on in my life, it is there for a reason, a teaching or a blessing and all I have to do is accept it and find the good. This way of life is also informed by being brave, since I have been doing the be brave project, I have learned that whenever I get scared, I remember how brave I am and it makes me more brave (did that make sense?). Brave enough to put one foot in front of the other and trust that I can do whatever I have to and be happy doing it :-).
What did you have to accept lately and what were you brave about this week?
XOXO

12 comments:

WT said...

I'm sad to hear you have been feeling blue, but I'm glad you are beginning to emerge. As for all the other crap like love and money, screw it.

Annie Coe said...

WT-Wise words from the funny man :-).

M.Kate said...

Hello Annie, I am glad that you've finally coming round on this issue. Happiness is a funny thing actually...but yet it is so simple. It took me a long time to understand it and that it was right under my nose but I was looking too far away. As long as you are content with whatever you do at your own measurement, I guess that's what count the most. Big hugs to you Annie..

Melanie said...

I think to be content with your life is one of the hardest things to do.

My latest thing I had to accept was the need to sleep. I have a head buzzing with ideas and the need to get things done by Friday, but last night I had to get a decent night's sleep in so I could sew all day today.

sukipoet said...

Annie what a great post. Thanks for sharing these words and thoughts. I too must constantly bring myself back to accepting and embracing my life as I, esp now, seem to wander off the path. I recently had to accept my Mom's death,That she will no longer be around to "rescue" me, accept the fact that I no longer can live in these cozy quarters in which I just unpacked more stuff and make cute and homey,accept the fact that I dont know how to manifest the next phase yet.

sukipoet said...

PS do you know susan Weeds bk menopause naturally? Excellent. That is...if the hormones thing is caused by this natural phenomenon that happens around yr age.

Kath said...

I came hear by way of Robin Tweets. This week I have had to accept that I only have so much time and that for now a minimum amount of exercise will have to be good enough. I am so fortunate that I have not had to be brave about anything. A good week indeed.

mermaid said...

My post answers that. I really enjoy coming here for thoughts to ponder. I feel less lonely knowing others like you contemplate similar things!

To get back to the question, I've had to accept suffering as part of life, and I am trying to be brave in the darkness.

Annie Coe said...

M.Kate-You are a very wise and wonderful woman :-).
Melanie-You are so funny, so busy-even in your sleep.
Suki-I know you are in a rough place to accept right now, but time will take care of all of it
and I know you will land on your feet. I have not read that book, but will check it out. I am still having monthlys, but also a few small hot flashes...
Kath-Thanks for coming by and leaving a comment.
Mermaid-I feel actually the same whenever I go read your posts :-)

Yoli said...

Annie, there are those unexpected turns in the road. Just remain open and flow with it, don't fight it.

Eliezer Sobel said...

The real problem is, when you DO sell your next painting, you're still left with the question, "will I sell another one?" It's endless, similar to publishing books. It's never quite enough. But that said, how much are you charging for the painting of the dream house with the ladder outside and the boat inside?

Eliezer Sobel said...

P.S. You know, there are probably a lot of women out there who HAVE found their man and now they daydream about how great it would be to just live free and make art, kind of like that Annie Coe person!