I had decided to leave Thursday morning after dropping Bella at the kennel. Everything was set except I kept waiting to buy my plane ticket. Something told me to wait. Then at noon I felt I just had to talk to my mom, they held the phone to her ear so I could say my last words to her, she could not speak, just listen. They told me she could go any minute. As it stands she left at 5:10 9/11. I did not make it. My brothers account is that is was peaceful and sweet. A woman came and played the harp. One brother, one niece, her boyfriend and her doctor were there for the passing. I was home talking to her. After, while I was talking to my brothers on the phone my mom turned off my computer. It was on in the other room, there was no loss of power, no storm, but after I got off the phone and knew she had passed I went in to turn the computer off and it was already off. I had told my mother when I talked to her to please visit me and let me know she was okay. I believe that was her. I have been strangely calm, after 3 days of a roller coaster and waiting, the wait is over. My mom is free. I am not sure when we will have the memorial, in the next month I expect and I will be going home. There are a year of firsts ahead of me. Today is the first day without my mom on the earth. It is hard, but I feel her with me and all I can do is put one foot in front of the other. It is strange how the world and time marches forth. Thank you so much for your prayers and love.XOXO
I am a painter living in the beautiful moutain town of Taos New Mexico.
I have been painting since I was eight years old when I declared to my mother that I wanted to be an artist. She promptly went out and bought me an oil set. Perhaps not the wisest choice for a child, but it got me started. I have been painting ever since and my way of working and what I paint has changed dramatically over the years. At this point in time I am working with mixed media on board and canvas. Nearly every image starts with a dream, either waking or sleeping. Other subjects that inform my work are literature and nature. Each painting is for me an adventure in color and texture,an exploration of joy and a way for me to get to know myself better. There is always a personal narrative and some hidden message that I am unaware of until it reveals itself in the finished piece. My paintings are about whatever is going on in my life at the time I am painting. My intention when I do a painting is to be true to my authentic voice and perhaps to open someone's heart and mind to all the possibilities around them.