This is a post about longing and wanting and being afraid of never having. For a very long time I have been an artist and that means for me, working less so I can paint more. What that translates into for me (since I rarely sell a painting or even a ceramic piece) is that I don't have money for extras that most people take for granted, like travel or eating out. I have not bought a piece of clothing of any kind for at least a year. Now, I am not telling you this to make you feel bad. I made a choice to live this way and I take full responsibility for it. I do however have a growing list of needs and wants and I thought perhaps if I made a list and the Gods saw the list I may get lucky and receive some of it :-).
A trip to Paris.
A house to call my own.
A trip to Tangier's.
A trip to Rome.
A meal at my favorite restaurant in town. Very pricey.
A trip to Portland to see my family.
A trip to San Francisco to see old friends.
A painting and potter's studio.
There, I feel better.
Actually, I have sent away for a new book, called "Busting Loose from the Money Game" by Robert Scheinfeld.
I am hoping that it will help me change my relationship to money, my attitude clearly has to to change and I feel very stuck. I know that my painting is good and I know that it will sell if it finds the right home, but I also know that I have to change my mind before the reality changes. I will take you on this adventure with me and maybe we will all learn something, (though most of you all seem to be doing very well with your money). The book should arrive in about 5 days. I will keep you posted. Happy Friday. xoxo