This week has been one of waiting. Waiting to hear what is happening with our dear friend, Renee. But it has also been a week of living. If Renee, has taught me anything (she has taught me many, many things), it is that today is all we have, this moment, this now. I may be healthy, but a million things can happen in a life, my life could go at any second. It is true for all of us.
I don't know about you, but I want my life to count for something, I want it to be full of friends (it is), joy(most times) and I want my now to be alive. I want to experience all the life and light and nectar of each and every moment. I don't want to waste anymore time on: unhappiness, anger, bitterness, resentment, judgement or pain. My goal (it has been a goal for a long, long time, but Renee has made it seem more urgent than ever) is to love my life, no matter what.
To find the medicine in suffering and to embrace every experience that comes my way. Some good, some bad, happens in each life, what counts is how we deal with it. Some days I am full of self pity, then I think of our wonderful Renee and I am ashamed. No matter what the difficulty's, life is magic, it is a dream and I want to row my boat down stream and nod to every being, and creature and fairy. Love you. XOXO
P.S. When ever I get stressed I sing that wonderful song, Row, row, row your boat gently down the stream, merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily life is but a dream. There is a world of wisdom in those words if you stop to think about it :-).